Growth

Growing up we did not go to church every Wednesday and Sunday. We went sometimes but it wasn’t every single week without fail like some of my family and friends. Even when we did go I was never truly comfortable. I believe in God and I always have, but the church setting always made me uncomfortable. I felt judged.

Fast forward to me being a new mom of two & my oldest attending a church run day school program. I loved this program through and through and everything they stood for.. I loved it enough to work there eventually! Me.. I worked for a small town church run day school.. crazy, right?? Every Tuesday and Thursday along side the best helper I could have ever asked for (and honestly she thought me more about God and church that I ever taught those kids) we would teach those 3yr olds about God. We would read them a bible story and color a paper and talk about God ALOT, but I still didn’t have a church home. I still wasn’t comfortable on a sunday morning or Wednesday night sitting through a sermon. My children knew more about God than I did at this point. I still believed I just didn’t have a church family.

Fast forward to late 2019. I decided I wanted to get closer to God and I knew in order to do that I needed to find a church I personally felt comfortable in. I decided I would do this with or without anyone else. If you know me you know this is a HUGE thing because I don’t do new things alone. I do new things with someone who has already done it before me so they can show me the ropes. I do not like going into a situation blindly. I love guidance, but for this I knew it would be something I had to do alone.

Today, I woke up got me and both children dressed and for the first time ever attended a brand new church. I was so nervous to be going to a new place where I had no idea how things worked all by myself. Walking into a building where I wasnt sure if I would know anyone or not was a little daunting. Both girls were nervous, but we were all three excited! I delivered them to their classes downstairs and I proceeded ALONE to find a seat. This is HUGE for me. It was an amazing sermon where I learned alot of things I didn’t know. The music was uplifting and beautiful. I didn’t feel out of place once. Multiple people greeted me and were so nice. I never once felt judged. The girls came out of their class talking non stop about what they learned. I fully intend on going back next weekend, but today I accomplished so much more than attending church.

Today, I am proud of me as a person & I am proud of me as a mom. I feel like 2020 is my year for growth. Today was step one!